dating me means dating my anxiety and my random spouts of depression it means dating my panic attacks at 11pm or 2 am or 5am or anytime of the day for that matter it means dating my mood swings where i get really upset over everything about me and all my insecurities and how i’m not good enough because i’m never good enough
my little sister officially turned 10 yesterday and because i’m in another state i couldn’t see her so i called instead to sing happy birthday and when i was done she whispered “gay” and hung up on me
is that the same sister who put her burned hand on your heart because ‘it was so nice and cold’
that would be the sister
Even though you said you aren’t mad, I feel like you’re furious. Words can’t describe how badly I wanna talk to you. I see you everyday and can’t even get up the courage to say hello. I see those other girls stand by you, but to me it seems like they’re not an inch from you, even though they’re about a foot or so away. I try not to look at you anymore, but I find myself doing it all the time. I may look happy, but I cry myself to sleep a lot. Then again, this is all my fault. Everything was going perfect to you. It’s my mind that got to me. I want to kill myself while you’re off having fun. I won’t be around to bother you anymore but I wish you could see this. My thoughts are racing and I’m falling. I shouldn’t have left you. I wanna text you saying “help me” but you’d think it’s for attention. I have other people who could help me, but I only want you to. I can get better I swear. No I can’t. I’m so sorry.
I didn’t mean to hurt you and I want you back so bad but I only left because I didn’t want to hurt you with my depression and you deserve someone so much better but I can’t bear to see you with someone else and I’m sorry that I let you down. I’m a terrible person. And I’m in fucking love with you.
there’s a reason why I said I can’t be alone
soon the ancient meme god nyancat will return and slay your false meme idols. the hour of the lolcat is upon us. repent. u can haz mercy